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i swear to god im going to have pictures soon. just as soon as i figure out my new camera that my mother tried to buy my love with. she spent $2000 on me for my birthday, sorry but thats not going to make up for all the shit youve put me through my entire life by telling me i should have been aborted and everything.
anywaaaaaays, i got a raise. i now make $8.20 an hour which is fucking amazing. too bad i dont really do anything at work to even deserve pay. i dont feel that im really deserving of anything. my dreams have just been teasing me lately, i wake up and believe that i really am back with josiah. in reality, i have come to terms with the fact that it will never happen, not after how we destroyed all ties. :[
i tend to just smoke all day long. not weed, well yes weed, but more just like cigarettes. im not content unless something is in my hands whether it be a bottle, a joint, or a cigarette. my friends just feed my habit. never in my life have i had to buy pot, tony always has it.
i got a kitten. well, i stole a kitten from dannys aunts when we were at her 4th of july party. shes all grey and i named her beetlejuice and everyone loves her but she never stops running around. everyone but the other cats love her. they feel dejected.
she makes me want to be a kitty.
tomorrow i am apparently getting my lip pierced. the end.
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[28 Jun 2007|08:01pm] |
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dannys visiting his parents at some camp theyre spending a week at. im horrible but im hoping his phone dies before he comes home so i dont have to talk to him. ive decided that i dont want anyone. i want to be alone and just be hollow like i am.
i have also decided that im not ever going to grow up. my birthday is in 5 days and im just not going to celebrate it. in my mind if i dont celebrate then it doesnt count. but im probably lying and im really going to drink and smoke a bunch.
im not happy if i dont have a bottle of whisky in one hand and a joint in the other. i go to work fucked up on methadone and an 18 year old heroin addict lives with me.
nothing could get better because im always high and always happy.
except when i crash and the fucking world collapses.
bye.
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[03 Sep 2006|01:16pm] |
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i dont feel at all poetic today and it kills me.
does anyone have last.fm? seriously guys, add me!
last.fm/user/spacestations
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[27 Aug 2006|06:48pm] |
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ask me ANYTHING and i will answer. i love this stuff.
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suggest to me a good book/band/song/album/movie/anything!
i'm in need of some cultural enlightenment.
i watched this thing on the murder of jane mixer earlier. i want to read the book her neice wrote. also, i spent $100 exactly at old navy today. my mom is going to be so pissed. damn, i need a job. note to self: turn in application for giant eagle as soon as you are home!
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